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slimequestLife is stupid because I live in the middle of nowhere and nothing around here even remotely interests me when it comes to finding a job. I'm not the type of person who can just get a job anywhere, I guess I'm picky. I've sworn that I'll never work in any kind of food place again, simply because I can't deal with the stupid people and even stupider bosses that tend to congregate there. If I could find some anime or game store or some electronics place or just SOMETHING I wouldn't mind it at all, but there's nothing here for me, especially since transportation is a problem for me. Practically no place close by is hiring, and those that are I KNOW are total crap already.
It isn't even that I want to get lots of money so I can buy obscure game/anime merchandise (which sure, I'd like), but my dad is constantly hassling me for money. Instead of being supportive and trying to help me or something like that, all he sees me as is another potential source of income. He always tries to swindle me out of money, he's a lying bastard when he says he "needs money or we're all going to be kicked out of the house" or some crap. He wastes our money on stupid crap and then complains when we have none. Idiot. His attitude is making me not want to get a job just to spite him.
I honestly wish I wasn't broke so I could move out or something =p. There's nothing but negativity around here and that's probably never going to change. If I was in a different environment I'm sure I would be a lot better off. But whatever, I'm certainly not going to let stupid people get me down. It just sucks that the second I actually get up the will to get off my lazy ass, I can't do anything that I want to do.
At least I'm sleeping and waking up at decent times lately. That's a start I guess. Doesn't solve any of my problems, but at least that's one less thing I'm kicking myself over.
It isn't even that I want to get lots of money so I can buy obscure game/anime merchandise (which sure, I'd like), but my dad is constantly hassling me for money. Instead of being supportive and trying to help me or something like that, all he sees me as is another potential source of income. He always tries to swindle me out of money, he's a lying bastard when he says he "needs money or we're all going to be kicked out of the house" or some crap. He wastes our money on stupid crap and then complains when we have none. Idiot. His attitude is making me not want to get a job just to spite him.
I honestly wish I wasn't broke so I could move out or something =p. There's nothing but negativity around here and that's probably never going to change. If I was in a different environment I'm sure I would be a lot better off. But whatever, I'm certainly not going to let stupid people get me down. It just sucks that the second I actually get up the will to get off my lazy ass, I can't do anything that I want to do.
At least I'm sleeping and waking up at decent times lately. That's a start I guess. Doesn't solve any of my problems, but at least that's one less thing I'm kicking myself over.
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Date: 2003-06-06 09:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-06-06 03:03 pm (UTC)I should whore myself out online.
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Date: 2003-06-06 06:45 pm (UTC)Partly because I'm not supposed to. But yeah.=\ I totally feel you since my parents sometimes look at us as backup money when they play mah-jong or poker.*sigh*
Hope you get better. And when you do decide to look for somewhere to live, try Cali again...?xD